“Ask yourself, and yourself alone, one question: Does this path have a heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn’t, it is of no use.” - Carlos Castaneda
I look at the above quote, and internally I begin to smile. I smile because I believe that the path I have chosen has a heart, and I smile because I feel a great sense of joy and relief at understanding that this life is not about getting, but about giving forth to the world, my most authentic self, which is love. Sometimes it takes going into a heartless path, to find the path of your heart.
I seem to be endlessly inquiring into questions like “who am I” “What it is I am here to experience?”. “Is what I do, going to make a difference?” These questions play around in my mind and over the years have led me to some incredibly insightful answers. However getting to those insightful answers hasn’t always been a joyful experience, getting to those answers has taken a great deal of pealing back the many layers of my experience, my childhood, my youth, my adult years; peeling back the layers, has often felt like peeling off sun burnt skin, it has left me feeling raw and in pain.
Understanding that this is all just part of the process of becoming more conscious and aware of my path, and my choices and the impact of those choices, has been soothing. Each day that I allow myself to experience the full spectrum of emotions that live and breathe inside of me, I feel more and more connected to a deeply creative, honest and all accepting energy.
It still astounds me how easy it is to get distracted and forget, the simplicity of the hearts message, “Love and be loved”
The moment I realize that my gift in this life time is to Love and be loved, and to share this wisdom with others, my entire being relaxes, my mind ceases its talking momentarily, and I feel inspired to be more of who I really am, and less of who I think I “should” be.
I see this inner awakening happening in the lives of so many people around me, a softening into their heart space, and into what it is that brings them the deepest happiness. I also observe in myself and others a lot of struggle, anxiety and trepidation towards embracing this path fully, for to walk this path takes an -enormous- amount of courage, trust, faith and resiliency. There is nothing more challenging than consciously moving into the depths of your own inner space, and learning how to acknowledge, honor, love and nourish all parts of it.
If we begin to let go of fearing change and actually welcome it into our lives as an opportunity to refine ourselves, then we are half way there. Resistance to what is, causes more frustration than the change itself, if we could learn to see the challenges as opportunities to grow, then we would learn how to embrace them and not turn from them.
Ha! easier said than done. I can tell you right now, I am learning how to practice this more and more each day, and it takes practice, effort and a commitment to see, hear, touch and taste each experience as if it were your first. With each new day comes another opportunity to understand that we are not our story, we are not the circumstances we find ourselves in, we are not our lifestyle, or our occupations, these are all just things that we have created. Who we are is beyond all of that, who we are is much more intricate and expansive than we ever imagined possible, who we are is love manifest in the physical, we come from the energy of love, we are sustained by the energy of love, and one day we will return to the vast totality of this Great Love.
When you devote time to getting quiet on the inside, you begin to hear the voice of your heart, the voice of possibility the voice of knowing.
~L
December 2010
About me
Writing has created a space for my inner wise woman to step forward and speak her truth. She has shown me how to touch the depth of my saddness, strength and inner knowing. That is is my hearts medicine. Here are a collection of journal entries from your sister on the path.~Libby
